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As I was thinking about what I wanted to write for my first blog post it came to me quite quickly – I will talk about what happened after I launched Cilantro Road…
Many years ago, while I was working a corporate job and going into the office everyday, I used to come home drained, in a bad mood and unfulfilled. One evening, I walked through my front door, threw my purse and keys down and went straight to my room. I climbed into my bed, fully clothed, heels and all, and pulled the covers over my head. At first I felt silly (seriously, how old am I – hiding under the covers) but what it was providing was way more powerful than my judgmental self-talk. I felt warm, safe, nurtured, and I felt acknowledged.
The day I launched Cilantro Road out to the world, it was exciting, it felt courageous, and the mark of the beginning of a new chapter for me. Like anything that takes bravery, the next morning I felt afraid, nervous, and overwelled. What now? How will I do this? What if I don’t have what it takes? What if I fail?
As I sat with all this, I decided to go and get under my covers. The minute that comforter was over my head, I was at ease. In this cocoon, I could ground and fear settled. I’m not sure how long I was there but long enough for me to feel a sense of calm, connection and balance. I stayed there until I was at a point where I was actually giggling to myself out loud about how ridiculously awesome this particular act of self-care is!
Life will always present us with things that are hard and that will challenge us. It will bring us numerous opportunities that will trigger emotions that feel uncomfortable and scary. Yet, if we have practices that support us in these moments, that allow us to come back into our center and not abandon ourselves, that’s what matters. That’s what will allow us to face what may be overwhelming or terrifying or even exciting. We all have our own expression and tools that anchors us back to center. What is it for you?
The question I now hear is…oh, but darling, what if you fly?